18. My Biggest Fear

I am not sure if I have one big fear in particular, in fact, I am usually pretty brave about stuff and will not let anything get to me, ask my friends. But if I had to narrow it down, my top two would be heights and public speaking. Heights is probably the worst for me. I did not used to be afraid of heights?...until September 11. I am not sure why that made me leery of heights, but I am pretty sure it is because it was in airplanes, up in the air, etc. I guess it could be combined with planes, because ever since then, it has been quite the challenge getting me onto a plane. Let me tell you, I am a mess the entire time we are in the air. I absoultely HATE it! But like I said, it is not just plane heigth, it is being on anything higher than about 10 feet. On our eigth grade feild trip to Chicago, our class went to the top of the Sears Tower, and we all had to go. Oh my gosh, it was horrible. I did not walk around, I basically stood by the elevator the entire time. Public speaking on the other hand, is not really a fear I get to avoid as easily. If it is something like a 10 second thing is history or whatever then it is no big deal.. But speeches? No way. Hate em. This fear is probably more common than the heights one, and more self explanitory, so I will let it speak for itself. What I do not understand, is why the most common fear, is of dying. I know religious people will say they are not afraid of dying because they go to a better place, but what about nonreligious people? Even then death should not really be that frightening? I mean, it is inevitable? The only sure thing in life is death. So why is it such a big deal? We live, we die. I do not see anything in that to be afraid of. If anything, life is more frightening than death! I just don't get it. But hey, that's just me.